Tuesday, April 19, 2005
a little insomnia goes a long way
I woke up at 4am this morning and couldn't go back to sleep after that. And in this trying-to-fall-asleep state, all I could think about was everything I have to do, haven't done, ought to do etc... I haven't had that experience in a while.
Actually, lately I've been feeling pretty healthy about grad school. I've been adjusting to this strange world since I got here, but more recently I've made some healthy decisions and subtle changes based on some shifts in my perceptions. Since then, I've been feeling more positive and less stressed out about everything.
So, I don't know what last night's insomnia was all about. I haven't worked as much as I would like on my own writing, and that does kind of make me miserable after a little while. I'm also more than ready to be done with classes. The email announcing the summer prelim date also went out yesterday and I know I'll be seriously studying in just 2 weeks. So, that kind of brings on little, miniature panic attacks whenever I think about it.
Given the August 1st prelim, and work, I don't know how much fun I'll have this summer. I am going to Maine for my reunion. I'm not sure if I am mildly looking forward to it or mildly dreading it. I think I am going to fly to NJ again and drive up to Maine with Jony, so that is something to look forward to. And there will be lots of canoeing trips snuck in and around studying this summer- either as short as an hour or longer if we want. I am just so happy we bought the canoe. It's my new favorite thing to do with Jo. We row around, talk, coordinate our rowing and watch wildlife.
posted by knit wit | 4/19/2005 07:27:00 AM