grad school, politics, knitting and other meanderings. And not enough time for any of it.
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Thursday, July 28, 2005
Just 4 days now to try to learn as much as possible before the exam. I've followed my study schedule very well for the last week, so being on something of a track is helping me not totally panic. I have no clue if I know what I need to know, if I can remember what I need to, or if I can spit it out in the required way. I'm still trying to maintain blind confidence about this whole thing. If I can keep that going for the next 4 days that has to count for something.
And I really can't wait for this to be over. Pass or fail, I just want to be done with this already. As I mentioned before, I've neglected so much, mostly just in the past 2 weeks. When I think about it all I get a little freaked out, so maybe listing it all here will help push it out of my head for a little while. I'll just post it all here, and then I'll be back in 5 days to tackle the list. You won't see me before then.
- Jo (watching movies, hanging out, canoeing, going to Circus World in Baraboo, and all the other stuff we talked about doing this summer).
- Knitting. I have kept myself from knitting. I knew if I started my cardigan that it would just be one more thing to lure me away from studying...
- Cleaning the inside and outside of my car.
- Cleaning/organizing a couple closets.
- Filing my files in some order, instead of how they are currently shoved into the filing cabinet.
- A couple websites of some significance.
- Work. I left work early today. I will probably call out on Monday. I'll say they don't want me around as I am pretty grumpy and on edge. I think that will be best for everyone involved.
- My BBBS little sister. I cancelled on her once last week, and this week I was just not fun to hang out with as all I wanted to do was study. We are going to see Charlie & the Chocolate Factory next Thursday, so that will make it up to her somewhat.
- My cats. I just push them away from either the keyboard or writing all the time. They are snuggling with Jo more now.
- Fiction. We are going out Tuesday night after the exam to buy some fiction to spend August reading.
- 2 conference presentations-- for the conference I leave for on the 12th!
- My article. I almost forgot that. Jeez. That's no good. I'll also want a draft of that done before leaving for the conference as well.
Well, that really doesn't look too bad. But, it will keep me busy.
Ok. Wish me luck.
posted by knit wit | 7/28/2005 10:03:00 PM
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
raising our bars
Jo and I are about to move up in the cell phone world. We are cancelling our old and crappy cell phone service and our long distance land-line for 2 brand new flippy cell phones and a family calling plan. We've had a cell phone for a long time, but until we moved far away from so many friends, we never really used it. We have been trying to use the cell phone for the free long distance all year, but our signal has been crappy, so we decided to "raise the bar" and switch to Cingular.
Despite the fact I generally hate cell phones (I really hate listening to people on campus/in the store/on the bus chat away on them like no one else is around), I am kind of excited about getting a new gadget. I really love gadgets. And it will make travelling much, much easier. If Jo was stuck on the train, for say 8 extra hours, she could call home. When I am in Philly next month I can call her without having to set up a time to be in my hotel room so she can call me.
But, I don't think anyone else will really call me on it. That may be why I have never carried one around- who is going to call me on my cell phone (other than Jo to ask me to stop by and get something at the co-op on my way home)? I never get calls on my land-line, let alone on a cell phone. Actually, it will probably be off 90% of the time.
So I'll have better reception and I'll be able to call Jo from airports, but I won't be one of those people walking through campus talking like no one else is around. I swear I won't.
posted by knit wit | 7/27/2005 04:16:00 PM
Monday, July 25, 2005
the rubberband man
Well the back to school commercials are on. It is nearly August, and I figure there will be about 17% of the summer left after the August 2nd prelim. When I factor in all the other work I have to do after the prelim (oh jeez, so much stuff has been neglected) that leaves about 9% of the actual summer left.
I'm kind of complaining and kind of not. I do love back to school commercials and going out to by school supplies. I just wish the summer hadn't vanished right before my eyes...
posted by knit wit | 7/25/2005 07:49:00 AM
Saturday, July 23, 2005
twice as nice
2x this week I have gotten stuck in torrential downpours and soaked right through my clothes.
(The first time was on my way up the hill to work on Thursday. The 2nd time was today coming out of the library.)
2x this week I've eaten at Lao Lang Xang, my favorite restaurant in Madison.
(Jo and I went last Wednesday, and tonight we are going with Bob & Jodi, who haven't eaten there before. I'll probably even get Squash Curry again.)
posted by knit wit | 7/23/2005 04:36:00 PM
I'm heading out to school soon, to hide myself in a library cubicle for the day. That is the only way I am going to start seriously memorizing stuff. No destractions. I'm not even bringing my ibook-- just my hundreds of pages notes I finished printing yesterday, paper, index cards, colored pens and a sandwich for lunch. Fun times on a summer Saturday...
Like Sir Edwin, I could see myself giving up and throwing in the towel right now. But, then, like Sir Ed, the fear kicks in. Shear terror ought not to be a motivator, but it is very real, and hell, whatever gets me through works fine for me. I ran into a prof at school the other day who commented something to the effect of studying for the prelim must be "fun" because I get to totally immerse myself in what I love. Okay. Sure. But that is true only to a point. "Totally immerse" implies not having to go into work everyday, and not having any other responsibilities. That's just not the case. And it is an exam. With all kinds of memorizing and (whether it is most in my head or not) pressure. There's nothing like a big exam to suck the fun out of material you otherwise love more than anything.
Yeah, I know I don't have to do this-- I choose to do this, but right now given a choice, I would choose to spend the day cleaning the inside and outside of my car, and then watching a bunch of movies and eating ice cream with Jo inside our wonderful air conditioned apartment.
posted by knit wit | 7/23/2005 08:39:00 AM
Thursday, July 21, 2005
on coming out
Since my present life is boring/excruciating/exhausting/dull, and all I am doing is wallowing in the misery of trying to memorize huge amounts of information, I thought I'd tell you a little story today instead of another prelim-post.
Why this story? Well, while I was eating dinner (amazing left over Squash Curry- only my favorite food ever) Jo was watching some documentary on TV of older lesbians telling their coming out stories. I watched it for a few minutes with her, and it made me remember this...
When I came out I was 18, and in my first year of college near NYC. My friend Sherri and I came out together (well, not together, we were just great friends). We searched everywhere for any info on being gay-- all we had was section of the school library with a few such books (the world wide web wasn't really around then). Well, trying to be very good young lesbians, we read all about lesbian and gay history. We read about Stonewall, Christopher Street, and the West Village. So, we took the train in one weekend in search of this "heart" of gay America.
We went into the city and took the train down to Sheridan Square. I have such fond memories of spending so much time in that neighbor, although I usually go to the East Village now instead. We walked past the Stonewall bar and through the garden across the street (picture above), and then we stumbled on the Oscar Wilde Bookstore.
We went in, of course, and were totally in awe of all the gay and lesbian books. Not even knowing where to begin, and being very eager, we asked the friendly woman behind the counter for suggestions. I think I told her that I had just come out, and wanted a couple really good lesbian novels- like, you know, "must read books."
She walked me over to the fiction section and handed me two books- The Well of Loneliness and Curious Wine. They were "the best," she told me.
The first one I read was the shorter and "newer" of the two, Curious Wine. Total crap. I mean, as trashy as any silly erotic romance novel. So terrible and badly written, I'm surprised that I even finished reading it.
Then, I read The Well of Loneliness. It started out pretty interesting, in that old-novel kind of way. But it grew more and more depressing with every page. It was a miserably sad book that left me seriously scarred for quite some time.
I haven't read any lesbian fiction since.
posted by knit wit | 7/21/2005 08:38:00 PM
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
glass half full
I am so tired. My eyes are sore, my brain feels slow and groggy. I felt so refreshed after letting myself take most of the day off on Saturday, and now after a few days of studying I am exhausted again. I will be so very relieved when this prelim crap is over. I really do love what I am studying, but also loathe exams. I am trying to stay positive, but when I let my mind wander to the possibility of not passing, (beyond thinking about how terrible that would be) I think that at least I'll get to spend more time learning the material even more thoroughly... What doesn't kill us makes us stronger, right? I guess I am just one of those "glass half full" people to the core.
Jo is home! After a train ride home delayed by a mere 8 hours... and her ride to NY was also delayed by 4 hours. She won't be taking Amtrak again. She is cursing their name. Next time, she'll fly. Renting a car and driving would have even been less stressful, cheaper, and faster!
We are going out to eat tonight- to just catch up, spend some time together, and to celebrate the fact her album was released internationally yesterday!
Oh yeah, did I mention my insomnia is back? The last 2 nights- even when I do sleep I wake up feeling like I haven't. Jo brought some lush stuff back from NY, so maybe I will try a relaxing bath before bed tonight (instead of what I have been doing before turning out the light- trying to read as much as possible to squeeze the most out of the day). That might do the trick.
Sorry this is a boring post. That's just the way it is right now.
posted by knit wit | 7/20/2005 04:00:00 PM
Sunday, July 17, 2005
New Glarus Native Ale
Watching the ducks and birds from my office window
The card above my desk that asks "what would you attempt to do if you knew you could not fail?"
Six Feet Under
posted by knit wit | 7/17/2005 07:16:00 PM
Saturday, July 16, 2005
Today I couldn't shake feeling incredibly run down-- like if I didn't seriously take it easy I would come down with the flu or something that would take multiple days to get over.
So, I took it as easy as I know how. I made a wonderful salad from the contents of our CSA vegetable box- basil, cucumbers, radishes and green onions. This afternoon/evening I ended up planted on the couch and watched 3 movies in a row (I was also trying to review my notes on feminism & the welfare state, women's movements and citizenship at the same time. Sometimes that endeavor was successful and sometimes not).
First was Heavenly Creatures on the wonderful new station Logo. I've wanted to see it for a very long time, but every time I had the opportunity to watch it Jo didn't want to see it again as she found it too messed up. Well, I loved it. I just thought it was incredible, and incredibly disturbing all at once. I really like Kate Winslet too- my other favorite movie of hers is Hideous Kinky. I couldn't watch all of the final scene of Heavenly Creatures (you know what I mean if you've seen it) so I flipped quickly to a nearby channel and ended up watching in horror as waves covered Manhatten in The Day After Tomorrow. There's nothing like flipping back and forth between 2 very differently upsetting scenes. I ended up watching the rest of The Day After Tomorrow. It was an all around crappy movie with some really terrible acting. But, I laughed quite loudly at the irony of having Mexico turning away American refugees, and then that the US had to forgive all of Mexico's debt in order for Mexico to let Americans go there.
After that movie was over, the next movie was Garden State. Another recent movie I haven't seen (there are a lot of them) and kind of wanted to. It was a really decent movie- actually, pretty good. And I got kind of wrapped up in it, and even put down the reading I was trying do and just watched the whole movie.
Now I'm heading to bed, hoping that I feel less under-the-weather in the morning.
Just 2 more weeks of this pre-test-taking hell... just 2 more weeks...
posted by knit wit | 7/16/2005 10:54:00 PM
Friday, July 15, 2005
I'm working on a draft of my article.
Why am I doing this? I must be seriously insane.
I am looking forward to only leaving the house once between now and Monday morning (I have to go and pick up our vegetables tomorrow).
I need to finish all my notes for the macro section of the prelim this weekend, and then it is on to 2 weeks of making outlines, notecards, and memorizing like a crazy woman.
All of a sudden I am struck with an intense urge to read fiction. I mean, to get lost in a really wonderful novel. It has been at least 4 years since I last read fiction. It has been longer than that since I read fiction regularly. I want to re-read To the Lighthouse and My Antonia. I want to read War of the Worlds and Gertrude Stein's Autobiography of Alice B. Toklas. I even want to read The Beekeepers Apprentice that at least 10 people have told me is wonderful. (But, I am so very cautious with any "new-ish" fiction.) I want to read really good fiction, damn it. Any recommendations?
Speaking of fiction. I worked at an indie bookstore in NY where we used to get a kick out of customers who came in looking for the "non-fiction" section. We used to say something snotty like "non-fiction is everywhere but over there" (over there meaning the fiction wall along the side of the store). Then we would wait for the confused and/or irritated customer to sort the distinction out in their head before finally asking "what kind of non-fiction were you looking for" with a smile. Jeez, that bookstore took itself far too seriously!
posted by knit wit | 7/15/2005 09:32:00 PM
any ice cream flavor will do
Following the lead of Ang and Sir Edwin, I decided to take the oh-so-insightful "what ice cream flavor are you?" quiz.
That works for me. I love Strawberry ice cream. I also love chocolate, vanilla, chocolate chip, mint chocolate chip, NY Super Fudge Chunk, Butter Pecan, Coffee, Coffee Java Chip, Toffee Heath Bar Crunch etc...
What can I say? I just really love ice cream.
|You Are Strawberry Ice Cream|
|A bit shy and sensitive, you are sweet to the core.
You often find yourself on the outside looking in.
Insightful and pensive, you really understand how the world works.
You are most compatible with chocolate chip ice cream.|
posted by knit wit | 7/15/2005 01:10:00 PM
Thursday, July 14, 2005
bighappyfunhouse has a great recommendation for another vernacular photography site today, Square America. Check it out. I looked at it for a few minutes (but I seriously have to head out soon so I stopped) and there are some wonderful photographs there. I love found photos. I have about 100 or so myself (from the 1930s and much earlier- lots of tin types). Some day I'd love to make a website for them but that requires lots of scanning and such. Some day...
posted by knit wit | 7/14/2005 07:52:00 AM
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
There's a guy I work with (we share an office) who I frequently get in a lot of political "discussions" with. Well, sometimes they are discussions and sometimes they are arguments.
Among our topics of discussion...
I mean, come on people. Take a moment and really think about that "freedom isn't free" statement you have coming out of Bush's mouth/on your bumper sticker. Think about it. Let me try following that statement through-- if freedom wasn't free, then it would cost something, and then it wouldn't be... free? That seems to be one of the most vapid, illogical statements I've ever run in to. It is like nails on a chalkboard whenever I here it.
Today hopefully we'll try to keep the conversation to work/computers.
Oh, no, that isn't safe either. Then we'll have our usual Apple versus PC arguments.
- I had to explain to him a while back that people not everyone who studies gender or women's studies thinks women are better then men. Actually, that would probably be a minority. I also explained that studying gender, meant studying men, not only women. I added that most sociologists and activists (the ones I know anyway) would define feminism simply as wanting equality for men and women. He was surprised with all this information, but I couldn't tell if he was pleased or not to know I wasn't the "feminazi" he imaged me to be.
- Who the so-called "insurgents" really are in Iraq. Why they might not want us occupying their country. This one ended in silence from my office mate. What do you mean, fighting against an occupation?
- Whether or not women can be high school principals (seriously, he brought this up with me one day). He tried to argue that women are only suited for elementary schools and (I couldn't believe it could get any worse) that black men are more suited for high schools like Madison East because black kids will listen to them. Fuming, I told him he really shouldn't even suggest such things to me, and that he didn't want to have this discussion with me as I was about to go off on a rant on sexism/racism, and that I really needed to get some work done. He stopped talking. Was he trying to pick a fight with me?
- Yesterday he announced that he thought the saying "freedom isn't free" was brilliant. Because, he reasoned, freedom isn't free. You have to pay a price for it. I just sighed heavily, pretended to be very involved in whatever I was doing, and never replied.
posted by knit wit | 7/13/2005 07:47:00 AM
Monday, July 11, 2005
on being bearable
Jo is leaving tomorrow for NYC for a week. Part of me wants her to go so that I can be truly unbearable all by myself without dragging her into it (although she says I am not unbearable, I think she must be an angel for thinking so).
How bearable am I? You can decide for yourself...
I feel myself kicking into that "last push" mode where I just want to focus on nothing else but getting this prelim done. I want to not have to go into work. I would rather stay home, day and night, studying and memorizing. But, damn it, I have to go to work. I have to interact with people there. I would rather be totally reclusive. I don't want to run into anyone else who is taking a prelim who might have some kind of contagious case of panicking (although running into someone yesterday who just now started studying made me feel slightly better), or who might have some smug confidence (who the hell can be totally confident about these exams?). I also don't want anyone to ask me how this is going. I can't bear to answer, because I don't know how this is going. I volley back and forth between some measure of confidence, and total overwhelming panic.
My strategy over the next 3 weeks includes lots of Chocolate Therapy ice cream, trying to keep my blood pressure down so my hands don't swell up, and trying to keep from crying randomly while working. I guess this is what happens when you care about something so much, and I suppose that I wouldn't have it any other way. Sounds like fun, eh?
So just ignore me until August 3rd.
update: hey, folks. My sister described this post as "really sad." Looking back on it today, I think it is actually pretty funny. But, I just mean to say-- don't worry about me. I'm really doing OK. This is just what I need to do to survive the next three weeks. I feel really fortunate to know what it is I need to do to get through-- that self-awareness is something I've really worked for over the past couple years.
posted by knit wit | 7/11/2005 03:31:00 PM
Sunday, July 10, 2005
war of the worlds
We just got back from seeing War of the Worlds. (Some breaks from studying are necessary, even if it seems frightening to take a break, working every second of the day is also frightening.)
First let me say this is a phenomenal movie. Really amazing. For about 90% of it I was so totally terrified that my palms were sweating and my was heart pounding. And I've seen a ton of scary movies. I mean, really, this movie is so incredibly well done-- so close to the original book and so wonderfully filmed, I will have to see it again.
But the ending crapped out. As so many endings to great movies do. I mean, jeez, Steven Spielberg, if you're going to scare the crap out of us while we watch people being exterminated/disintegrated/used for fertilizer for over an hour, then at least don't wimp out and give us a cheesy tied-together-with-a-bow hollywood ending. Please.
It is a movie worth seeing. It is unusual to think of Americans as refugees. It is humbling to think we could all be blown up tomorrow anyway.
Well, on that note- back to studying.
posted by knit wit | 7/10/2005 05:02:00 PM
Saturday, July 09, 2005
While studying for this prelim, I have had to "add" a lot of words to my dictionary in MS Word so that they don't keep coming up as misspelled all the time. I discovered today that I can pull up a list of these words. Seeing the list like this is funny-- there's nothing like a discipline like sociology to make up all kinds of "new" "words" (or to put a lot of potentially problematic terms in "quotations" all the time). Anyway, I have nothing else to post, so I thought you would appreciate them...
posted by knit wit | 7/09/2005 11:28:00 PM
mornings: I've been setting the timer on our new coffee maker to wake me up early so that I can start working. But, this plan has been foiled every day this week by waking up with a headache. It then takes me 2 hours to get rid of the headache before I can sit down at my desk and work. The plan all along has been to not make myself physically sick over the prelim. It seems I have to work on that some more.
evenings: Instead of the "after dinner walk" some people take, Jo and I have started taking after dinner canoe trips. Canoeing in the evening is wonderful-- it is cool, the sun isn't beating down on us, and there are tons of dragon flies and frogs on lilly pads to enjoy.
the missing: I'm having a lot of dreams about the London bombings and 9/11. This morning I turned on the TV to see posters of the missing on BBC world news. That sick to my stomach feeling of sadness, that the missing weren't ever going to be found, came flooding back as if I was standing in the 4th street station again in September of 2001 all over again, looking at the missing posters plastering the walls. I am struck, though, by how calm and strong Londoners seem (at least on BBC news) as after 9/11 in the city nothing felt calm or secure. I wonder if it actually feels so calm in London. I wonder how New Yorkers seemed on TV after 9/11.
posted by knit wit | 7/09/2005 09:48:00 AM
Friday, July 08, 2005
Inevitably, August will come. The prelim will happen. Hopefully, I'll pass, even if it is by some super-slim margin.
On a day like today (and on all the days ahead of me too) it is good to remember there is life after the prelim exam. Not only life, but some actual things to look forward to.
My sister is coming to visit after the exam and before I go to ASA/SWS. She hasn't been here in a few years, and I'm sure we'll have lots of fun.
And I just got my tickets today to go to Philly for the convention. Getting the tickets always makes upcoming trips more of a reality. My hotel room and roommates are also squared away, and despite my general anxiety about the prelim, I am also very much so looking forward to seeing people at the convention. I'll either be leaning on them for "help me stop myself from dropping out of grad school" support or there will be some celebrating. I've also never been to Philly, and unlike Atlanta where I didn't know anyone there at all, let alone to sightsee with, this time I am going to do some sightseeing.
posted by knit wit | 7/08/2005 01:35:00 PM
shopping and going out...
Confession: for the last couple of days I feel like I have done more in the way of shopping and going out then studying. Unless printing, organizing my notes, 3-hole-punching them, and reading them on the bus counts.
The day before yesterday when I got home from work we went out in search of a new coffee maker. We had to give up on the automatic grind requirement. It seems our cheapo Mill & Brew was the only one that had a grind setting (1-7) so you could set how fine you want the beans ground. Just 1 setting is kind of unacceptable-- different coffee and different people need different grinds (yeah, I did work in Borders cafe for a while). So, we ended up with a lovely Krups coffee maker. It doesn't grind, but it makes great coffee, and beeps when it is finished. So, we have to grind the beans in the morning. We'll live.
We also stopped by Old Navy while we were out and I bought the most amazing pair of sneakers. And I just saw online that they have them in green. I might have to get those too, considering half of my clothing is green.
Last night, we went out to the CD release party for No Camouflage. (Jo has a song on there.) We hung out there for a while, and listened to some of the music, although we left at 9pm. While some of the audience was great, we were both shocked that many people wouldn't stop talking while the speakers and performers were talking. I mean, it is a larger venue than Mother Fools (I've never seen such a rapt audience before), but presumably people were there for the anti-war CD release party as they paid to get in and got a copy of the CD. So, I don't know why people wouldn't shut up during the speech made by the guy from Madison's Veteran's for Peace. And they were even ruder during David Hart's performance. We left after that. Just going for David Hart was worth it- his spoken word poetry is so amazing. Other than that I felt like I was getting a headache from trying not to be pissed off at speaking talking too loud, and trying to strain to hear the speakers over the crowd. Unbelievable.
So this weekend a ton of studying needs to happen. And another article draft? Is that possible? We'll see...
posted by knit wit | 7/08/2005 08:05:00 AM
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
shameless Jo promotion
Today Jo and I found out that her new album, "Island" is already being sold in the US! The international release isn't until the 19th, but Projekt Records just went ahead and started selling them. It will also be available through itunes on the 19th.
So check it out here...
(we're heading out in search of a new coffee maker now... not having coffee tomorrow is just not an option...)
posted by knit wit | 7/06/2005 03:46:00 PM
Ugh. Our wonderful Melitta Mill & Brew coffee maker has decided not to make us coffee anymore! Oh the horror! For some reason, you put 7 cups into it, and only 2 come out. The rest of the water disappears and you are left with not much coffee. I need coffee in the morning. I guess we need another coffee maker. It must grind & brew though, since I could never go back to having to grind beans by hand in my sleep first thing in the morning. We've had this one for 2 years and it has totally spoiled us!
And I should also be getting out of bed and into the shower and heading off to work. But, I feel lazy this morning. It has to be lack of coffee. And Jo is sitting next to me laughing because Good Morning America has some thing on about high blood pressure and what to do about it. My doctor to me yesterday she wants to start regularly checking my blood pressure as it has been high ("borderline" or whatever that means) for the last 6 months. But, she doesn't want me to do anything about it, or get checked again until after the prelim. A wise decision indeed.
posted by knit wit | 7/06/2005 07:51:00 AM
Monday, July 04, 2005
The problem with me (Actually, I volley back and forth on whether or not this is a problem or a good driving force, but that is beside the point and right now this seems mostly problematic.) is that no matter how much I do, I always think I could have done more.
Even though I spent 3 and a half days this weekend doing nothing but studying, I wonder if I could have done it better/more/differently. Even though I got up in the middle of the night last night because I came up with the idea of making a "where standpoint theorists stand on standpoint theory" spreadsheet, I still am left with some nagging feeling that I could have and ought to be doing so much more. Even though my wrists are sore, and my eyes are bloodshot, I still think it isn't somehow enough.
I used to talk to my old therapist about this a lot. She would try to convince me that I ought to feel good and be satisfied with the work I do. I would try to convince her that it was good that I was never satisfied, because then I would keep working. I can see her now totally cracking up as I try to argue for dissatisfaction (she did used to laugh at me/with me- I appreciated that about her). Of course, I realize constant dissatisfaction has side effects. And of course I know it isn't a terrible idea to let myself feel good about things every once in a while (and I do). It just isn't my usual response. I'll have to work on that.
Meanwhile, I am actually looking forward to going in to work tomorrow! I've been cooped up in the house mulling over the answers to questions that may/may not be on the prelim. I need some mundane work!! It will be lovely.
posted by knit wit | 7/04/2005 09:05:00 PM
posted by knit wit | 7/04/2005 07:18:00 AM
Saturday, July 02, 2005
I'll give you 3 guesses as to how I am spending my long weekend. (Oh come on, you shouldn't even need 2 guesses to figure that out!)
Anyway, here is the itunes mix I made for this month of my life. These are the songs that are especially key for keeping me going. At least if I have to spend a long weekend studying, I am (a) studying something very interesting and (b) listening to some of my favorite music.
Let Me Go Easy Indigo Girls Rarities
Sitting Cat Stevens Tea for the Tillerman
Watershed Indigo Girls Nomads Indians Saints
Get Gone Fiona Apple When The Pawn...
Spring Street Dar Williams Out There Live
Tuesday's Dead Cat Stevens Teaser And The Firecat
Letter To A John/Tamuritza Lingua Ani DiFranco So Much Shouting So Much Laughter
Wise Up Aimee Mann Aimee Mann Magnolia
Knuckle Down Ani Difranco Knuckle Down
Uncle John's Band Indigo Girls Rarities
The Blessings Dar Williams Mortal City
The Boxer Simon & Garfunkel Bridge Over Troubled Water
Mona Lisas And Mad Hatters Indigo Girls Rarities
Bitterblue Cat Stevens Teaser And The Firecat
Shame On You Indigo Girls Retrospective
Walk On U2 All That You Can't Leave Behind
Hand Me Downs Indigo Girls Nomads Indians Saints
Elsewhere Sarah McLachlan Fumbling Towards Ecstasy
The Ocean Dar Williams Mortal City
Half A World Away R.E.M. Out Of Time
Rubylove Cat Stevens Teaser And The Firecat
Up Up Up Up Up Up Ani DiFranco Up Up Up Up Up Up
Get Out The Map Indigo Girls Shaming Of The Sun
Flowers Never Bend With The Rainfall Simon & Garfunkel Parsley, Sage, Rosemary And Thyme
Fugitive Indigo Girls Swamp Ophelia
Boy in the Well R.E.M. Around The Sun
I Don't Wanna Know Indigo Girls 1200 Curfews
Recoil Ani Difranco Knuckle Down
I'll Give You My Skin Indigo Girls Rarities
posted by knit wit | 7/02/2005 09:50:00 AM
Friday, July 01, 2005
I just have to say...
I just have to take a break from celebrating Jo's birthday (not a break from studying as I have yet to do anything but feel sick about that today) to go on a brief political rant about O'Connor resigning.
Holy Crap, folks. I got the news in my inbox this morning from HRC and immediately felt a terrible sinking feeling in my stomach. More than once today I have thought "good god- if only Kerry was going to be replacing these judges and not Bush." This was one of main the reasons why I made phone calls and pounded the pavement for Kerry (I'm not, nor have ever been a die-hard democrat). O'Conner was the deciding "moderate" swing vote on so many choice and civil rights issues. Bush will only take this opportunity to put one (two, as I am sure Renquist isn't going to last long) very neo-con, fascist judge(s) on the court (you can read about some of them here if you have a strong stomach). Roe v. Wade will most likely be overturned if 2 of these neo-cons get on the bench. When abortion becomes illegal the Bush Crime Family will have even more blood on their hands (as women begin dying from illegal abortions).
I spent yesterday afternoon with my BBBS little sister. She had some important questions out-of-the-blue about Bush and why he hates poor people. She wanted to know why Bush didn't have to work hard to become the president- how he had connections, and came from a privileged background. We talked about how much the war in Iraq is costing, and what that money could be spent on here in the U.S. This is a kid who doesn't have healthcare and her mother can't work because there is no childcare for her children. She didn't know that in other countries (like Canada), everyone has healthcare. She also wanted to know why toys were made in China and not here where people need jobs. She told me when she asks questions in math class, the teachers tell her to figure it out herself. But, she loves activity/puzzle books and we discovered that she loves Mad Libs. She could have done those all day. I tried to talk to her about Pat Hill Collins' Black Feminist Thought, but she might be slightly too young to get that (yet). We passed the large Army recruiting building on the way to her place. It is, after all, right next to the low-income housing development. I told her that I'll have to make her watch Fahrenheit 9/11 soon.
Okay. That was enough of a political rant. I feel better now.
posted by knit wit | 7/01/2005 05:40:00 PM
happy birthday jo!
Today is Jo's birthday! I woke her up with a lovely cup of coffee in a beautiful hand-made mug with a dragonfly on it that my parents sent her. Soon we are going to run errands (not much birthday fun, but we really only had $1.61 in the bank until today). We'll do anything she wants today (and she promises I can study for a few hours). They'll be berries with whipped cream later on and I'll indulge her by watching a couple old sci-fi movies that I usually would make her watch on her own (I'm not as in to them as she is). I think tomorrow my study break will be hitting a matinee of the new War of the Worlds. I usually loath remakes, but this one, and the remake of Charlie and the Chocolate Factory look worth it!
We always check email first thing in the morning (right up there with feeding the cats and making coffee). This morning Jo got 2 emails of questions for interviews in 2 German music magazines! The questions are great and from them we can tell they did a serious amount of research on Jo and her music- which is so awesome! She is still getting great radio play, and has a live on-air interview with a radio station in Germany this week. I am so proud of her! I always said (well, I wasn't the only one who said this, but I always agreed) that her music would do so much better in Europe than here. I also googled her this morning (it is interesting to gauge success by googling) and her upcoming album, Island, is discussed all over the place- mostly in languages that google translate doesn't do a very good job with, but still it is wonderful to see her album listed along side Goldfrappe and other well-knowns.
Happy birthday Jo!
posted by knit wit | 7/01/2005 08:47:00 AM