Monday, August 29, 2005
So I spent the weekend doing nothing. Well, I did do some things. I watched like 5 movies with Jo (among them The Terminal, Kinsey and Boogeyman). I made a huge fruit salad and ate too much of it. I made jalapeno poppers for a snack (from scratch). I chatted with my parents, and my sister, randomly surfed the internet and read blogs. I didn't work on any websites, I didn't reply to school-related emails. I kept thinking that I should be doing something constructive, but I held back the urge.
Sure, taking a mental and physical break this weekend was necessary and generally appreciated, but I don't think I am very good at not doing anything. It almost gives me more anxiety now to realize there are things I could have done with that time. On the other hand, I feel like now that I have had a break, I can imagine being more productive and actually getting work done without forcing myself to do it (which is usually what I do).
I kept thinking this weekend about a quote that I heard someplace a long time ago; "do without doing and everything gets done." While that doesn't apply literally to everything- there is something to be said for just not doing. Also this weekend I realized that since I gave up a while ago on "fitting in" someplace, that now all of a sudden I have actually found myself in a place where I "fit." There was no struggle to get there- it just all worked out.
posted by knit wit | 8/29/2005 05:18:00 PM